So my gallery opened last November. November first. Fawn's Sudio we named it. Wonderful, awesome, exciting, and surreal....
Three teaching tables, room for 12 students comfortably, and more if needed. So cool to come to work and see my art on the walls in the showroom, even more cool was the fact that I had enough paintings to fill the walls! Then to sell originals right off the wall! Amazing.
It only lasted a little more than a month.
Then my appendix ruptured sometime in the middle of November. That is when the pain started anyway. The surgery was in December just before Christmas. My female organs absorbed the poisons, and for three weeks I walked around dying. I was mis-diagnosed with a tumor on my ovary.
So my dreams and hopes were shut down for a month. Then I tried to get the gallery going again, so thankful to be alive. But my female organs were all sacrificed. So everything changed. Everything.
Got sick and couldn't cough without severe pain. So I closed the gallery again.
Reopened again, and took a mat to lay down on during the day before classes started in the afternoons. That helped.
Looking back it makes sense why I am 8 months into recovery, and still struggling.
Abrupt and instant menopause is harder than the pain and scar tissue, which still hinders me. Fatigue, frustration, and despair are all daily companions now.
I still try to work all day (teaching art classes, doing framing, working on custom paintings, etc...) and then I come home to do laundry, cooking and cleaning and whatever else is expected of me.
It just dawned on me: of course it will take longer to heal if I don't slow down! Duh! I can't get up at 5:30 in the morning to work on paintings, do a load of wash, and go to work all day and then come home to more chores, and expect to have the energy I used to.
Top it all off with a husband that wants to argue and fight about most things these days... Honestly, no wonder my hormones are so out of whack! Anyone, even someone with balanced hormones, would be up and down with someone constantly putting them down and calling them nuts...... He pushes me to my limits. (Then he wonders why I am not the slightest bit interested in romance. Duh again!) I don't think I am fully to blame here. He knows how to turn things around, or how to keep me up-tight.
So I am sleeping in until 6:30 am, and I am going to bed earlier, and I am not trying to get all the chores done! And if he doesn't like it he can start pitching in. Just saying....
We are starting to laugh about it now, thank goodness! I thought we might have to go our separate ways if this kept up. And even more remarkable: Robert is doing some grocery shopping to help me out, and cooking some meals too. Love it when he puts steak on the grill for me!!!!
Reality is tough, but I am still thankful to be here.