Saturday, June 3, 2023

Joy comes


So many horrific things this past year:

1) In December 2022 my son, Kyle, lost his left eye to cancer.  Now he is undergoing treatment for a tumor near his kidney.


2) My husband has been in severe pain in his neck for several months and now in his lower back as well for the past two months.


3) My close friend, Sandy, has battled cancer off and on for years and now is back on a stronger treatment for cancer that has spread to other parts of her body.


4) Another close friend, Marie, lost her mother last year, and now her father has lost his leg to diabetes. 


5) I had heart issues that started last fall, (panic attacks, extremely low blood pressure, high pulse rates, racing heart, irregular heartbeats, an abnormal EKG, low blood count, abnormal size of blood cells. So many tests: more EKGs, Echo of my heart, extensive blood work, etc... 


I have cried a river of tears for my son and my friends.


But I have grown.  In the middle of all this, joy comes when you focus on the things you are thankful for.  


Good things have happened too:


1) I get to keep my grandchildren quite often, sometimes three times a week! 


2) This past week, Kyle had a good report: the tumor is shrinking.  So good to hear that!  


3) Yesterday, I also had a good report: although my heart was stressed and a little weak, and I had some borderline numbers in my bloodwork, they are still within the norm! The issues were stress related, and the symptoms are gone now.


4) Zac (my oldest son) and Ashly had a baby boy, Noah, last year.  He is a year old now. What a delight! 


5) I am back to painting more, even if it means getting up early or staying up late.  (I have a new gallery page with Daily Paintworks.  It has me challenging myself to create more.)

https://www.dailypaintworks.com/Artists/fawn-mcneill-15096


6) I am learning to take advantage of each opportunity to spend more time with friends and family (enjoying the simple things). 


 7) Incredibly, Okeechobee Main Street has renovated and set up an art center for its Arts and Cultural Alliance in my old building! Now I am teaching and doing framing for them!


I am grateful, stronger, and looking for the good that comes from the trials. I'm thanking the Good Lord for so many blessings.

 "Standing Tall"