Thursday, July 21, 2016

Not my job?

Been keeping my grand daughter for a couple of weeks.  She is 9 now, so I expect more out of her than I used too, but she doesn't seem to get it.

My husband says it is not my job, to back off and leave her be.  Hmm. in some things maybe, but for the most part I disagree.  If she isn't learning to be polite, and she isn't learning to be patient and not interrupt, and she isn't learning to tie her own apron for art class, or brush her teeth well, then who's job is it?

She is told to go and do this or that at home, but it doesn't seem to me that anyone is paying much attention.  I get it. She talks back, she argues, and she is not always the sweetest child, but someone needs to discipline her, teach her, show her by example, help her understand.  Someone needs to love her enough to be the tough parent, be the one that to take the extra time and face the battles.

Again, I only have her for two weeks, so I am sure I won't be a huge influence, but I am also sure that I cannot turn my head and act like her behavior is fine when often it is completely unacceptable. So I make a big deal out of it when she is polite, and I reward her when she does get it!

Yesterday she told a friend some hurtful things, and she is very excited to leave and not put up with me any more. Honestly I want to ignore her and be angry and not do anything nice for her now.  After all, I have gone out of my way everyday to do art classes for her, make things fun, buy the foods she likes, and even purchased over a hundred dollars in school supplies and clothes for her.  But she is just a child, and how will she learn to be grateful if I am not forgiving and kind?

It is my job, and I am the adult, and I won't give up on her!  I love her too much.  I think too, that this must be how Daddy God, Abba Father, loves us so patiently.

Sunday, July 17, 2016

Faith, the substance of things hoped for

So much sorrow in the world.  So much pain and suffering.  Not only from terrorists and evil forces, but just in everyday living.  We all have loved ones we ache for.

My pastor's wife recently shared a truth with me that has helped me walk through the shadow of death with my mother-in- law.  My husband also faces serious health issues. Sometimes I feel like my life revolves around suffering and death.

"Hold your hands out, palms up and say, 'Father, I receive the strength and the grace you have already provided for me for this situation,' instead of continually asking.  It's alright to ask, but we also need to receive!"

This is especially helpful when my faith is not so strong, and the tears have taken over.  Now I am seeing the Father's hand at work. Prayers are being answered, and faith grows.  Not just in me, but in those I pray for too.

May Daddy God, Abba Father, put his truth in your mouth as you do the work and study his word! May he bless you and your loved ones mightily!

Thursday, July 7, 2016

Fiction novel

Been working on a book for years.  Started over many times.  Finally settled in on turning my life story into a fiction novel.  Changing everyone's name was the hardest part! But I love the freedom it gives me to finish parts that I don't remember, or rearrange the order of some events.  Now it has become more about the main character, Christina, and turning it into a good story.


This version begins with Christina waking up in the hospital after a fatal car accident, where her horse didn't survive.  She has broken bones, a collapsed lung, and a concussion.  She struggles with some memory loss too.  I chose to begin the story here, because every time I got to this part of the book there were too many gaps in my memory.   This resolves many issues because I can go back and forth in time to to tell the story.

Now it is becoming an exciting novel, and I can remain objective instead of getting emotionally tangled as I recount the child abuse and foster homes that were part of my life. I also have the freedom to exaggerate or down play as much as I want too.  Instead of just a sad story, it is one of victory and truth as the point of view is from heaven instead of from my own perspective.

I have a lot to learn about publishing, but I am doing the work and hope to get it out there soon!   I am revising, having it edited, and researching literary agencies and publishing companies.

This is the beginning of a whole new journey for me!