My life has been enveloped in the sick and dying. My mother-in-law (98 years old) has been in and out of the hospital many times the past few years. This time she gave up for over a week. My husband of 16 years, who is quite a bit older than I am, has also been through many serious life threatening events. We have come through cancer, respiratory failure, two brain surgeries (non cancer related), and now severe COPD. He and his mother have both been in the hospital at the same time this past week. It threw me for a loop. Spending so much time at their bed sides can be emotionally draining to say the least.
I started to head into a deep depression again, but this time I took some time out and went for a walk to clear my head. This is a splendid time of year in Florida. The cool breezes and warm sun are amazing. I went for a walk at sunset up on the levy at the lake. This is one of my favorite things to do to rise above the circumstances. My husband is home now, and his mother is doing better, so that helps too.
While I was out walking, I saw this little area across the rim canal that was lit up with pinks from the sunset. I have seen this little stream coming into the canal before, but this time I decided I needed to paint it. So after supper I pulled out a large canvas and painted it! It was exhilarating to be inspired and motivated and stay up late to create something so compelling! It pulled me out of the downward spin I was giving into.
This world is on a downward pull, always throwing things at us to destroy us. If we don't fight it, it gets overwhelming! I am finding out some things that help me fight back: getting up early to have time to pray and have devotions, painting at work (even if for just for short periods of time), walks at sunset, playing Christian music, and painting at home in the evenings.
Looks like the shadow of death has moved on, and I am living again. Currently I'm working on some animal portraits, which is always my favorite subject matter! It is amazing that even in the middle of the pain and chaos I can find joy and see goodness and truth!